The #1 Thing you Need to get out of an Asshatty, Abusive Relationship!
Hi Guys — I’m thrilled to announce I’ll be speaking at my first relationship seminar in April! Come see me there! Onward now:
There’a saying in Al-Anon (a 12-step program which is really for people who are addicted to other people … shyly raises hand) and it’s this: “You can’t fix your brain with your brain.”
What the hell does that mean? Don’t worry, I’ll get to it.
When I started my recovery from my addiction to an Asshat who lied, cheated and filed his dead foot skin onto a paper towel and left it lying around the house in places where I could step in it, I was full of pride.
These are the things the voice inside my brain told me (the voice inside my brain sounded like Kate Gosselin):
1. You are so much smarter than the Asshat/abuser. You can trick him into changing. It’s for his own good.
2. He is awful and you are good and it’s very important you make him understand this.
3. If it weren’t for this f-ing Asshat you wouldn’t have to get up at 6:30 in the morning on a Saturday to attend a 12-step program with a bunch of losers who are so much worse off than you are.
4. I can walk away from my abuser/Asshat through sheer force of will.
Does any of this grandiose, bitchy inner monologue sound familiar to you?
If so, you are probably trying to fix your brain with your brain.
Fixing our brains with our brains is thinking we know more than anyone else and don’t need advice or influence from another person or spiritual guide to fix our own lives.
But here’s the thing, without help, even if we do manage to extricate ourselves from our current abusive relationship, we are likely to go right back out there and choose the same Asshat all over again, just in a different body.
It took a very long time for me to accept the fact that when it came to dating and romantic relationships I had absolutely no idea what the hell I was doing.
I had to hit rock bottom, what seemed to be a thousand times, before I became humble enough to finally seek guidance.
One of my rock bottoms was discovering my boyfriend romancing another woman at 2 a.m. in his apartment, which I’d been staking out for three days. I was on a first-name basis with the cops in the police car next to me staking out a drug ring. We exchanged donuts.
After my boyfriend’s flagrant affair I finally got humble and asked for help.
Okay, don’t freak out, I like to use the term “Higher Power” when I talk about where I sought help. But for those of you who are not religious or are agnostic/atheistic, a higher power does not have to be God.
It can be your sponsor in a 12-step program. It can be your therapist. It can be me if you continue to participate in my Asshat Recovery Program.
It can be any trustworthy font of wisdom who is willing to tell you the unvarnished truth and give you ACTIONABLE TASKS in order to heal your broken bits and pieces.
Believe me when I say, a higher power is the #1 Thing you need to get out of an Asshatarific, abusive relationship. Because we simply cannot fix our brain with our own brain.
I eventually asked a woman named Joan to be my sponsor in Al-Anon.
Joan was my higher power and kicked my ass by forcing me to take actionable tasks, using the 12-steps, to not just leave my abusive relationship, but she also helped me heal my broken places so I could change my choices the next time around. Because I’d basically dated the same guy, just in different bodies, for a total of ten years.
And believe me, those ten years were like doing hard time at Rikers, even with conjugal visits.
In the fall I’ll be releasing my flagship Asshat Recovery Program 12-week webinar where I will be giving you the actionable tasks you can utilize to do exactly what I did.
In the meantime, keep coming back here for clarity, laughs (at my expense) and pass this on to anyone you love who is under the spell of an evil Asshat.