“The literary equivalent of a summer night, a good friend and a gin-and-tonic: Shannon is a deft writer; a natural storyteller with a wicked turn of phrase and frighteningly specific memory...”

Download Shannon's story, "Beautiful Boy, Brandon Lee," in its full length, excerpted from her book, Smash, Crash & Burn.

Persistent Auld Lang Syne (Gestation: 24 Weeks, 5 Days)

New Year’s Resolutions: 1. To stop hating myself, loving myself, hating myself, loving myself. 2. To stop being jealous of Gwyneth Paltrow that skinny, Glee-singing, Oscar-winning, blog-writing, Castilian-speaking, perfect child-breeding, rockstar-marrying, over-achieving Bee-diddly-atch. 3. To accept my cellulite. To fight

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Flu Pandemic Panic (Gestation: 24 Weeks, 1 Day)

It’s the Night of the Living Dead up in here.  Henry and I went to bed at eight-thirty – it’s now midnight. I’ve been up to pee five times and to eat a tangerine and now to post. Henry’s been

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Pregnancy Christmas List (Gestation: 23 Weeks)

All I want for Christmas is: 1. To keep the pregnancy boobs. 2. Nipple tassels for the pregnancy boobs that I can helicopter at will. 3. Fishnet support hose. 4. A non-pooping pet. One that comes standard with an intra-defecatory

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A Very Pregnant Christmas (Gestation: 22 Weeks, 4 Days)

Ahh, the Christmas season is upon us yet again.  Stress on earth, general resentment toward men.  I’m related to Ebenezer Scrooge.  Paternal fifth-cousin once removed. Last Year’s Resentment Litany: 1. Having to find the perfect gift for twenty plus people.

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Alcohol Cravings (Gestation: 21 Weeks, 4 Days)

We enter a Mexican restaurant for our first dinner out together since the twelfth of never.  It smells of tomatillos and pinto beans con queso, deep-fried corn tortilla chips and freshly blended Jose Cuervo 1600 margaritas with salted rims.  The

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Sibling Rivalry: What do you mean there’s a new baby coming? (Gestation: 21 weeks)

Whaddaya mean you’re giving me a sibling? Today I lifted my shirt to show 18-month old Clare my belly. “There’s a baby sister in here for you,” I said. She finger-tipped a wooden “F” block and hurled it at my

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10 Reasons You’re a Bitch to Your Husband During Pregnancy (Gestation: 20 Weeks 5 Days)

1.  You’re a bitch to your husband during pregnancy because he flattens himself against the wall like a minnow avoiding a migrating sperm whale when you pass. 2.  He thinks natural childbirth sounds “interesting.” 3.  He brings you a “slice”

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Panicking During My Amniocentesis (Gestation: 19 Weeks, 6 Days)

I panicked during my amniocentesis today, reminding me of a fat, gray seal I startled once while scuba diving.  We came upon each other suddenly.  He was eating a crayfish and I was peeing in my wet suit to warm

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Gobble Gobble Thanksgiving (Gestation: 18 Weeks, 6 Days)

Thanksgiving Top Ten: I’m thankful for the “three folds of the labia.” We are having a girl! I’m grateful my husband took a blood oath that he won’t marry a younger woman to bear him a son, hence carrying on

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Skinny Postpartum Models (Gestation: 17 Weeks, 6 Days)

I was having a peaceful moment en toilette, belly bumping up against ballooning breasts, thumbing through a catalogue geared sadistically toward mothers, when I turned the page from the baby super-pajamas (that can feed, burp, diaper, swaddle and protect your

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These Shoes Weren’t Made For Walkin’ (Gestation: 17 Weeks)

Brand-new black pumps.  When I put them on, I’m not a four-months-pregnant-mommy-of-a-toddler-with-a-stockpile-of-Preparation-H-and-Colase.  No.  I’m La Femme Nikita … if her cigarette skirt had an elastic panel over the belly.  And if she had water retention.  And didn’t have sinewy muscles.

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Lonely Mommy (Gestation: 15 Weeks, Six Days)

I’ve been cruising for mommy friends like a red-assed baboon during mating season. I have a neighbor with a son Clare’s age. Today I pushed my stroller in front of her house six times, stopping to tie my shoelaces, adjust

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I Want To Barf! (Gestation: 15 Weeks)

What no one tells pregnant women is that the only way to abate the continual nausea that drones in your body, akin to the ominous low hum that continually drones in Taos, New Mexico, is to eat. To eat a lot. And

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Achy Breaky Breastfeeding Boobs (Gestation: 14 Weeks, Two Days)

Today at the Pump Station in Santa Monica, the epicenter of breastfeeding worship, Sage, the counter matron, (okay, maybe her name wasn’t that New Agey – it might’ve been Peg), asked pointedly over my brand new Pump-In-Style breast pump just

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Pregnancy Insomnia (Gestation: 12 Weeks, 6 Days)

I’m struggling with an intractable case of insomnia.  I haven’t wanted to write it down in black and white because in doing so I’m acknowledging that it exists and may, in fact, never go away.  I’m praying this is my

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Pregnancy Musical Blues (Gestation: 12 Weeks, 4 Days)

I’m obsessed with The Sound of Music.  I watch it compulsively, bursting into tears every time someone bursts into song.  Especially the song about, Maria, the character played by Julie Andrews.  “How do you solve a problem like Maria?  How

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Don’t Hate Me Because I Used To Be Beautiful (Gestation: 12 Weeks, 2 Days)

Over a plate of Sake Kasu Chilean seabass with shitake mushroom tapenade at Chaya Brasserie in the heart of Beverly Hills I bathe my friend Georgia in a fiery attention. We’re both the mothers of small children whose husbands are

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I’m Pregnant aka My First Month of Pregnancy

I’ve been pregnant before so I suspect my body will remember how to do it again, but I‘m old.  Not as old as say Methuselah.  But close.  Very close. Still I’m hopeful. I watch my husband Henry prepare to leave for Ralph’s

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